We love to think much of ourselves and have others think much of us. All of us, at some time or another, will find ourselves seeking out ways to show others how “attractive” we are. This is human nature — our sin nature. We can fight the temptation to strive for man’s approval, but in our depravity we will always reach a point of failure.
Thankfully, I am greatly blessed to have been given several opportunities in my life to be cut off from outside eyes; when God has used sickness and health struggles to put me in a place where I am required to see myself as He sees me and not as how I present myself or how others tell me they see me; when I must look on my decisions, actions, and station and determine what value they really give me.
Who Am I Really? What Am I Worth?
There can be a sense of harsh reality when we are brought face to face with how the Creator God truly sees us. In this place of isolation we are forced to observe our true worth, not a worth based on our abilities or activities, but based on the status of our eternal souls, which transcends our earthly accomplishments.
Are we valuable because we are good communicators and organizers, because we actively encourage people, or are physically appealing? Do we have value because we are well liked and respected by others, act wisely with our finances, or are even diligent in our study of scripture and prayer? The answer to these questions is a telling testimony of who is Lord over a person’s soul. For many people in hospitals and sick beds all over our globe the items listed above are all they can hold on to for their sense of value.
For me, by the grace and mercy of God alone, I have assurance that finite human achievements are not what determine my “price.” I am valuable because God chose to save my soul and make me His daughter — not due to any attractive action of mine, but because of His sovereign grace. I have been chosen to bring Him glory.
Glorifying God Even When I Can’t Do Anything
As I lay alone in bed for hours and days at a time I can be at peace because I know my value. I can rest in the fact that Jesus Christ is all that can satisfy and fulfill me. I do not have to labor and toil to feel that I have a successful life. Better still, God has promised me that in my faithfulness and obedience to trust and rest in Him, He will be glorified (2 Thessalonians 1:12) — yet even our ability to be faithful is a gift from God.
There is a nameless believer, confined to a damp, cold, ill-supplied hospital on the other side of the world, who at this moment is being faithful to God. And though few on earth will ever hear his name or see his actions, God will still be glorified through this precious follower of Christ.
I praise the Lord God, who strengthens me, that I am valuable enough to bring glory to my heavenly father even when no one sees it. The world requires loud announcements and glamorous attraction for something to be honored and praised. Yet to honor, praise, and glorify God we must simply be humble, faithful, willing servants to our King in whatever circumstance we have been placed. That is truly a precious lesson to learn from time spent in bed.
About The Authoress: Evie is a 23-year-old rebelutionary and ministry assistant to Alex and Brett. She is short (5-1 to be exact), sends tons of emails daily (her current record is 184), and has an obsessive work ethic (she dropped into the office one week after having major surgery).
In her spare time she likes making pottery, crocheting, and hiking. Her heroes are Sarah Edwards, David from the Bible, and her mother. The last book she’s read is “Faithful Women and Their Extraordinary God” by Noel Piper. She has four brothers and one sister (two of which were adopted from Africa) and has been to the emergency room more often than all of them combined.